two, two, two blogs in one!

so today . . . i am soooo frustrated!

i just spent the last half hour writing a quick blog about being frustrated. then in an instant, i somehow hit a key that highlighted all the text and replaced it with the letter "c." i tried to go back to the place where i had saved it last, but instead hit the button TO PUBLISH IT!!! thus, i was left with a blog that looked like this:

c

yep. that is what posted. everything i had written was gone. deleted. swept off my computer screen and out into oblivion.

and it was a really good blog too.

so now i am starting over. this new version will not be as perfect as the one i deleted, and now i have to stay up longer. and i was just ready to crawl under the covers with my book! but i will try to retrieve as much as i can from the quagmire i like to call my brain . . .

so today . . . i am soooo frustrated!

i have been trying to post video on my blog for the last week. i just can't make it happen! and i don't understand why, because i have successfully done it before. well, maybe not successfully, because the audio was way ahead of the video. but i think i can blame that on my computer, since the video was taken with my webcam.

the video i posted a few months ago had just the opposite problem--the audio was behind the video. of course, that video was shot with my phone. but that is not my biggest problem. my biggest problem is that now i can't get any video at all to post!

i don't understand it. i have checked and double checked my videos, and they fall into the time and format parameters allowed by blogger. they just will not load. i have tried everything i can think of. it is starting to really annoy me . . .

. . . because here is what is happening. i find myself thinking, "oh that would make a cute video for my blog . . . " and then i remember that i can't post video. it is very odd. i am having trouble thinking bloggy thoughts without also thinking video thoughts.

and i don't understand that either, because i hate it when bloggers post video. really, seriously hate it! i read a lot of blogs--in fact, sometimes i get sucked into the muddy pit of clicking and reading everything that is hyper-linked. it can take days to get back to where i started, if i am not careful! but if i run into a video, i am immediately stopped in my tracks. usually i am catching up on my blog reading when i have a few free minutes at school, or while i am watching tv, so i am reading with the sound off. (which should not be a problem, since blogs are meant to be read!) and you know, a blog video without the sound is usually meaningless. this messes up my whole system! i either have to wait until i can turn the sound on to proceed, or (gasp!) skip it. neither of these is a good option for someone who seems to have mildly ocd tendencies. and yet, now that i can't do it, all i can think about is posting videos!

i need to just stop it! this is not a vlog, after all--it is a blog. that means writing and reading, not talking and video. and besides, i am fairly sure that with my perverse nature, once i figure out how to post video, my need to do it will disappear. yes, i am sorry to say, i am that person . . .

but the truth is, there are some things that just cannot be conveyed accurately in words alone. for example, my school kids singing. i can tell you all about it, but until you hear their little voices and watch their goofy antics, you will not understand why they make me laugh.

so i will keep working on it. maybe this weekend i will get it figured out. there must be a trick to it that is eluding me . . .

tired of waiting . . .

so today . . .  i tried to blog.  really, i did. but i wanted to use some video, and it is taking FOREVER to download.  i don't know if the problem is the internet or blogger or my computer or the size of the file.  rollie took the video with his slick little pocket-sized video camera, but it records in high-definition.  and since it CAN record in high-def, i am pretty sure that he did.  because, you know, why would you record in a lower resolution when you have the capabilty to record in high-def.  in your pocket!  so it may be the size of the file that is taking so long . . .

but it is really late, and i am soooo tired.  i even fell asleep today at school.  after the kids had their rest time, my four little kindergarteners were playing with legos, and i just couldn't keep my eyes open any longer!  so i leaned my head back against the wall, and took a little catnap.  the kids were so funny.  when they saw me with my eyes shut, they got very quiet . . .  and then without moving or opening my eyes, i said, "i'm not asleep.  i'm just resting my eyes."  they were so surprised that chaos ensued for the next couple of minutes.  (and for those of you who are worried, no, i didn't really sleep.  but it sure felt good to close my eyes for ten minutes or so . . . )

so today's blog is not going to appear today, because i cannot stay awake any longer waiting for those crazy videos to load.  i am going to sleep.  but i will keep trying to make it work.

maybe they will be done by tomorrow.  or thursday.

ah, technology.  some days i love it.  some days i want to rip it's face off.  today, i am not loving it, so i leave you to draw your own conclusions . . .