the promise of sunshine :)

so today . . . it rained. again.

i know you are probably getting tired of hearing me whine about the rain, especially if you live someplace where you are buried by snow! but seriously, enough is enough...

the ground is waterlogged. my car is a mess. i am forced to wear my big puffy coat (because it has a hood.) the parking lot at school is one big puddle. we can't go outside to play at recess. i can't walk the dogs (ok, ok, i know i haven't been walking them lately anyway, but that was one of my new year's resolutions and it is just not happening in the rain!) the pups don't even want to go out! all this rain is just not normal!

but there is good news! i just checked the weather on my phone, and it looks like things are clearing up. no more rain is in the forecast until january 17th! by my calculations, that means two weeks of sunshine!! the ground will dry out. the dogs will want to walk. the big puffy coat can go back into the hall closet. life will return to normal...

and so, to celebrate the promise of sunshine, i am thinking that perhaps tomorrow i should take my car to the car wash. with the top down. just because i can :)

alert!! possibly whiny blog ahead!

so today . . . my house is a mess. i have laundry to do. i have a bag full of school work. i have music to work on. and cds to burn (oh, diandra is going to kill me when she realizes i am so far behind...) i'm so very tired. and i have no weekend...

well, actually there is a weekend, but it is full of obligations--that means events i have to attend and things i have to do that i don't necessarily want to do. these are all things i agreed to, which means at some point i wanted to do them. but that was a few weeks ago when i didn't realize what my last couple of weeks were going to be like...

when i am out of the house as much as i have been these last few weeks, i find that i am only home long enough to make a mess. rollie doesn't understand how this happens. that is because he never makes a mess--or rather, he never leaves a mess. but sometimes i am just too tired to put my stuff away--usually because it requires decisions to be made, and when i am tired, my brain leaves me to fend for myself...

what i find odd, is that at school i am uber-organized--which is why i have been working until 5:00 or 6:00 almost every night, trying to get my new room put together! i know where everything is, and i put things away as soon as we are done with them. it has to be that way in order for me to function. unless i want my class to resemble a pinball machine with 14 balls pinging around, i have to be able to put my hands on stuff immediately--i can't turn my back and go looking for something or chaos will erupt behind me. i know this. i have seen it happen.

but then when i get home, i sort of go on auto-pilot. i see things that i should do, but when i assess my energy level and brain functioning, i usually decide to just leave it until another day--a day when surely my neurons will be firing. (i sound like annie--"tomorrow... tomorrow...") and since i have been practically living at school for the last three weeks, i am waaaay behind at home. and now i have school work to do. and worship band music to arrange. and blogging. and it is already friday night. and i am tired.

so i am giving up, at least for now. there is no way i am going to get everything done this weekend. no. way. and thinking that i can start out next week all fresh and orderly is just going to discourage me when monday rolls around and reality rears it's ugly head.

so, giving up. i don't think i've ever actually done that before. i am always thinking, "well maybe..." or "if i just tried..." but that is exhausting! i'm not giving up for good, though--then i would just be dead! but i think for this weekend, i give up. i surrender. i quit.

except for the laundry...

warning!! whiny blog today!

so today . . . i'm not feeling so good. i have had a headache for two days. i've tried to get rid of it, but we had plans to go to the gem faire yesterday and the swap meet today--both fun activities that i didn't want to miss. so i just keep popping tylenol and going--the energizer bunny on drugs. but this afternoon, i kind of hit the wall.

school starts for me on monday. i cannot believe my summer is already over. it has been very strange. i only read one book! that should tell you that it has not been my most relaxing summer ever. and now it's over.

maybe i should be glad it's over. it feels like i have worked hard and accomplished very little. maybe i need to get back to work to get myself moving and organized. or maybe it will just bury me. i guess we will see . . .

diandra joined a gym several days ago. and if i join with her, i can get an amazing deal--too good to pass up. i think. no enrollment fee, no contract. i just pay $20 a month and i can use all their equipment, attend classes, and have access to a trainer--although after seeing diandra try to move after working with her trainer, i think i will pass that feature up. so i will pay for a couple of months and see what happens. if nothing else, i'll bet i get some good blogging material . . .

i'm making myself tired. and did i mention i have a headache? and tomorrow is going to be an exceptionally busy day. and then school starts on monday morning.

i think i need sleep . . .