i did choose just one husband . . .

so today . . . we went to rubio's for lunch. again.

rubio's is rollie's current favorite place to eat. he would eat there twice a day, every day if he could. we eat there a lot, because when we are getting ready to go out, he will say to me, "so, where do you want to go to eat?" and i will say, "i have no preference--you choose," or "i'll be happy anywhere i can get a huge soda," or the ever popular, "it doesn't make any difference to me as long as i don't have to make the decision." and so we go to rubio's.

decision-making is not my strong suit . . .

we eat out a lot, and menus pose a problem for me--they are full of choices. but at the places we eat more frequently, i usually know what i am going to have before we even get there. at jack-in-the-box i have a sourdough jack. at subway i have tuna on whole wheat with lots of lettuce. at mcdonald's i have cinnamon melts (we only go there for breakfast.) at red lobster and olive garden i have the salmon. at sizzler i have steak and malibu chicken. and at black angus i have the teriyaki steak. (ok, we don't eat at black angus often, but on the few occasions we do eat there, i know i am going to have the teriyaki steak!) i don't even need to look at the menus. but if we go someplace unfamiliar, i am always the last one to decide what i want to eat . .

i hate to make decisions. sometimes my email inbox is 5 or 6 pages long--not because i haven't been keeping up with my reading, but because i can't decide what to do with it. should i forward it? who should i forward it to? should i save it? delete it--no wait, i can't delete it, i might need it someday . . . maybe i should go to that website and buy the advertised item, but i don't have time right now,so let's just save it for later . . . that looks interesting, but is it true? i should ask someone about it or check it out on snopes, but again, i don't have time right now . . . this is what goes through my head when i read my email each day.

when i got my new computer, i didn't bookmark any sites for several days. the bookmarking feature is dangerous for me. on my old computer i had hundreds of sites bookmarked. i bookmark anything i think looks interesting, or that i don't have time to read immediately, or that i can't afford to purchase right away. if i am researching a new purchase (usually something electronic) i will bookmark every review i read, every place i find it for sale (because of course i want the best price,) and every comparison chart. and once it is on my bookmark list, it is pretty much there for life, because i can't decide what to keep and what to delete--you never know when i might need to refer to something . . .

this is a large part of why it is taking me so long to finish up cleaning out the scary room. i am swamped with decisions--what to keep? what to throw away? what to give to charity? what to box up and save? what to sell on ebay? what will diandra want? (she saved the yearbooks . . . ) it would be so much easier if i could just choose what i wanted to keep and throw the rest of it out! but i can't do that--i can't throw away perfectly good stuff just because i don't want it anymore . . .

maybe it would help if i would quit shopping in multiples. because when i am shopping, if i find something i really like, i will often buy the same thing in different colors. i have read that it can sometimes be a good idea to do that--buy one in black and one in a color. i do it because i can't make up my mind about what color to buy. i don't really have a favorite color--i like them all. recently i found a dress in my favorite store on clearance. and then i had a coupon to use. and by the time all the discounts had been taken, it cost me $7.50 instead of the original $30! i should have said, "woohoo," picked a color, and saved myself $22.50! instead i bought three dresses in different colors. because i couldn't choose--well, i guess i did choose, because i didn't buy it in all 7 colors (that would have just been too much!) but i couldn't pick just one.

recently we went to the new yogurtland store. this is a wonderful and awful place. they probably have at least 20 different kinds of frozen yogurt and probably that many toppings as well. it is both heaven and hell for me! there are so many choices . . . and yet, since i fill my own bowl i can have all 20 flavors if i like, so i really don't have to make a decision. but i do, because i have to pay by the weight of my delicious frozen treat . . . and then eat it all!

. . . so we ended up at rubio's for lunch once again. and that is ok with me, because they do have big sodas there and i don't have to look at the menu--i know what i want--all american taco on a whole wheat tortilla with no fresca. that is my current favorite. although, today they told me they will only have that on the menu for a few more days, which means that the next time we go to rubio's, i will have to choose something different to eat.

maybe we could just start going to jack-in-the-box . . .